Wednesday, March 31, 2010

The free slave


Today I sit under this Banyan,
I worship the worshiper,

Such heaviness, such warmth,
May these tears cool me down,

I am in the underworld, this is my world,
The spartan is hectoring: Mount this tree!

I hurl my shield,
The sky is clear now.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Black Hole


My heart is racing,
Am I skipping a beat?
It is fucking frenetic

My hands are unruly,
The chemicals in my head rule,
I flee, no fight

I can’t see the world,
Tunnel vision,
Chemicals rule

I am scared,
They will be cruel in their revenge,
I plead guilty, be mild in your punishment Milord,
The Lord rules

Can I rise, Can I struggle, Can I fight,
Milord if you allow me,
Can I fry you in your chemicals?

Haha, Now I see,
Now I burn your effigies,
Into nothing,

Your psychiatry,
Is clean,
The air is pest-free.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010



Rowdy hair,
Stuffy mouth,
Reeking breath.

Gooey eyes,
Put off the lights again,

Holy morning,
Still staggering in the sleep train.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Happy Birthday - Honey Bee


Give me some reason,

To believe that we are in a prison,

Prison, I tell you.

We want to celebrate, today I was born,

It’s my birthday,

Bring the cake, yeah, the brown,

Chocolate dust, the desert with silent candles.

So I light it with my fire,

My fire, I am the fire,

To one more year of struggle,

To slaying the unwanted thoughts,

Death by a thousand knives to myself.

So I live, I breathe the atmosphere in my lungs,

I am the helium balloon, high above.

May this life return to me forever,

I willed it,

With my Christ and Ravana,

I nailed it.

To the cross!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010



Scratch and Scratch and Scratch and Scratch,

Scratch till there is no match,

Till every strand of your hair,

Is nestled under your nail,

Till the beads of sweat on your temples,

Are absorbed by your pores,

Scratch and Scratch and Scratch and Scratch,

Close your eyes,

Listen to the grating,

And Scratch and Scratch and Scratch and Scratch,

What you dredging?

Behind eyelids you might see boulders,

But I see rock,

She reminds me of my friend,

Is she an enemy?

Who wants to fling the rock at me?

So scratch and scratch and scratch and scratch,

What stop now… Idiot… Stop scratching your head… stop looking for meaning… Ha!

Thursday, March 11, 2010



You say schizophrenia,
I hear cause and effect,
You say delirium,
I hear soul, mind and atom,
You say madness,
I say id, ego and superego,
I say science.